It's been different to last year. Last year I had this strange sense of calm because I thought we would have lost to Collingwood if we'd got through, so it was almost relief. Plus last year the overall campaign had been good, with 2 ripping wins at the MCG.
This year the disappointment & emptiness has been a real slow burn since the final siren. It's really crept up on me how shit this feels, & I hope the players feel the same. As I said to my kid before the game, I just didn't want it to be over yet, I wanted to be still in it, still in the news, still maybe planning a Sydney trip, still giving our returning players another week to tune up.
I can't help feeling incredibly bitter at Brisbane aswell. I've never hated that club - I've barracked for them in plenty of Grand Finals over the journey, & I like their coach & would be happy for him if he had success. But right now in my mind, Raynor, Neale & Loehman are just public enemy number 1 & I hope they choke on their own spew against GWS.
Been reading social media sparingly but scrolling past anything that might make me say something I'll regret, especially among friends
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I'm off SEN & the shows for the next little while, always good catching up on TV series & movies in the offseason, but I know I'll be back in a few days to follow the finals & barrack against the villain teams & then eventually attend the GF.
It's the weirdest psychology, this business of being so heavily invested in the fortunes of a group of blokes, most of whom we've never even spoken to before. But I wouldn't have it any other way. Non sports fans just don't understand.
For me it feels like the season's absolutely flown by, which is weird because it's been the longest ever or something. But seriously that opening game against Bris, then the close win over the Tiges just feel like a couple of months ago. I think I'll look back on season 2024 as just one big WTF just happened then moment.
On a personal note this season's been intertwined with just yet another part of the journey of being a dad. Had to park my own emotions after a loss or two & make it more about easing my young one's disappointment. He's needed me, but then, if I'm honest, other times like yesterday morning, I've been inspired by him & his ability to just get on with things & point out that at least we made it respectable. When I started following in 83-84-85, we lost 3 elim finals in a row, & I came out the other side OK. So I'm sure my lad will be right, even though I feel tremendously guilty & abusive at times for some of the shit I've put him through, making him wear our colours
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Thanks for another good season everybody.